Life is like a joke.

Identification

1991,12july

i wish there is someone for me,
but i learned to be independent
cause i know that day might never come.
&i don't believe in hopes.

My name is Vans.

Desires

a Canon D500 camera,
HTC Hero,
a sewing machine,
a blueprint table,
& of course a bike.

For your infor, i do not like to use my father's money so most of the things are paid by myself as
I AM NOT SOME RICH KID

Is this all what I want?

Spoken

the note that said...

Do I have the freedom of speech?

Endless

layout: lyricaltragedy
inspiration: outgone
N284!

ruiliang
steph
benjamin
celeste
chrysan
dasiree
deanne
ignasia
ivan
james
jeremy
jisiang
jonathan
kevin
liying
nicholas
nicolette
peiyi
rita
viona
Am I close to them?

I wrote a love song on; 2:35 PM | Thursday, June 26, 2008

Dysthymia

CAUTION: LONG POST!
(due to some rahhrahhs from me)

wooohooooo~i was feeling good yesterday
after the precious reply i had waited.
my heart like just felt a lingering touch of happiness
&yesh thats how i felt yesterday.
i was still feeling good until,
this irritating teacher irritated me in the early morning!
that human being told me and the other teacher that,
i do not know how to prioritise my subjects!
at that very moment,
i felt like arghh...take her up and slam on the floor.
firstly, the extra class was utra boring.
therefore, i cannot concentrate so i went for art.
secondly, your way of teaching really cannot attract students to learn!
thirdly, i pray hard you will not be the cause of me failing that subject.
for your infor, i hate
&its really hate people keep nagging on something i know what im doing!
i just dont understand why most older teachers have to nagnagnagnag!
most of all will be when the students know exactly what they are doing!
i tell you on those moments i felt like walking to the teachers
&give them a slap on the face and say,
"can you please ask what your students want?"
if you realised, schools like to work in a way that they are always,
plannningplanningplanningplanning
&forget to ask we, the students who actually the one who are studying,
what we want.
however, i didnt voice out due to the respect i have for them.
alright, another thing will be my fake form teacher(F.F.T) calling my dad.
that problem had kept me distracted for the whole day!
Pray hard F.F.T didnt say much about me, God help me!
Right now going to secondary school is such a dread for me...
so i want O's to come in no time, end in no time
&LEAVE that freaking school in no time!
oh yah, suddenly i remember what that irritating teacher said,
which caused me to be so reactively annoyed.
that human being said,
"Getting a distinction for art also cannot bring you anywhere!"
if those friends who know me, ART IS MY LIFE!
oh man, im annoyed right nowwwwwwww!
stupidteacherstupidteacherstupidteacherstupidteacher...
alright, im feeling better.YEAAAAAAAA!(i know its so fake)

rewind back to yesterday,
i was at Clarke Quay when i saw...
Fariah, a long-time-no-see closefriend.
seriously, i was feeling over the moon yesterday evening.
i miss so many friends who i didnt see for a long time
&yesterday i just saw one of many friends.
you know how it feels, you feel good man.
i mean real good luh,
however there are another two friends i miss greatly.
maybe i should book a bbq peak during my birthday,
so my many-friends can come.
Steph said she will bring me to Farmart!
woooooo~i cannot wait for my birthday,
i feel that this coming birthday will be very different.(in a good way)

i was reading up about Dysthymia,
which is a mood disorder that falls within the depression spectrum.
It is considered a chronic depression,
but with less severity than a major depression. .
This disorder tends to be a chronic, long-lasting illness.
and im wondering if thats the illness i suffered for two years plus.
well, i think its stablised already, so friends dont worry.
alright thats the end of my post, update abit later!

God, i pray for restorations.